Wednesday 31 March 2010

LucK


i guess it was my luck
took a subject that i do not have to take

its my wrong
careless

effecting my NGPK
im DEAD

since starting my journey at Sabah
i did a lot of things that i never do before

begging people
tying my stomach
hating people,even my lecturer
participating in many activities in school

sometimes
do feel tired
do cry when meeting failures
do feel sick
do feel frustrated
do feel dont wanna to move on anymore
do miss the protection given from my family all the times

but
their hopes and supports
make me feels comfort

gotta try harder
though its hard,i know..

Tuesday 30 March 2010

听见了吗?


亲爱的阿布:
你听见我心里的话吗?

有好多好多心里的话想说
我无法向任何人说
那种感觉很难受

"女孩慢慢长大,却还是蒙懂"

可是我会试着
认真的活下去

好想赶快去Kundasang..
很期待可以爬山看星星

A long time ago
a little girl wanted to find her future
she went to the mountain and asked the sky
"where's my future?"
and just then
a little star said
"sweetie,the future is in your hand."

Friday 26 March 2010

MixFruitX2~~~~~PuddingX2~~~~

25.0310-26.03.10
我们公司-FRESH11来乱的
东西没卖到多少 ...自己在那边狂吃别档的东西,不然就是在那边三八,不然就是在那边跟对面摊子的呛声~~喊破喉咙
跟组员们的合照..(美晶是隔壁摊的,在我们那里38)
货没到~桌子空空.
热.晒.
货到~还是没什么成绩..喊破喉咙..别的非华人组员趁我们不在没在喊,成绩当然是烂~
结论:还是自己华人办事比较好.

Thursday 25 March 2010

Writing Nonsense



everything seems starting to change
everything..

dont like this feeling

hope everything will be back as usual

OR is that im the one that cant face the truth?
im the one who run away from the reality?

not sure?
dont know?
dont want to know?

listened to many songs that i left
got all those songs..missed them

thanks to Westlife-my first English boyband,learned English by listening to their songs when i was a kid. (i checked dictionary for every hard words in the lyrics)

And
still not tired listening to "Everyday I Love You"-BOYZONE.

Wednesday 24 March 2010

不安


她很怕
很怕一切会结束
很怕她爱的一切都离开她..

Wednesday 17 March 2010

我不是球;我是人

你可以离开我吗?

我好不容易逃脱..

你却又回来

我很痛

我不会回去了

不想傻傻的

我不是你的球

不能让你踢来踢去

请你尊重我

我刚要开始新的人生

我非常喜欢我现在的生活

很自在

请你不要在捣乱我的生活

你有你的人生

你的出现只会让我想起以前的不快乐

只会让我更不开心

只会让我更看到你的真面目

你不爱我

就不要回来

我不是你寂寞的玩具

我不是你随时可丢可捡的石头

我有我的尊严

就到此结束吧

我们不行的..你知道的

忘记过去吧

我们各走各的

我们只能当朋友

谢谢

至少我爱过

我们谁都没欠谁

谢谢你让我看得更清楚

谢谢你离开我

就到此结束吧

我很享受我现在的生活

Bye Bye.

Saturday 13 March 2010

TRUM'S LIFE

phototaking of our Tourism Club^^
making those weird poses~~haha.
My feelings on the day:*pain on my hand, but happy with my life.

不只是朋友

这个星期,我们几个真的是发疯了~尤其是我和美晶..一个星期内关顾KBox三次~太压力了(借口)
其实是我们自己爱上某些歌,然后要练合唱^^
必唱曲:我爱他,我不配,不只是朋友,梁山伯与珠丽叶

之后,当然会自拍了~

这个星期过着奢侈的生活,虽然很开心~~可是下个星期要乖乖了..不然要绑肚子过活了.


Thursday 11 March 2010

TourisM DinneR Night 2010

yuhuu~~~~finally i uploaded these pictures successfully..been trying for days..wondering what happen to my blog.
Comes the story****
Very happy that could take part in organising the dinner night^^though it was a tiring and stressful job.
Making the door gifts was one of the toughest part..need to prepare 150 door gifts--all door gifts were hand made(including the packings..all fully hand made)
when seeing every guest holding the door gift..somewhere in my heart feels a bit proud^^hehe
need to thank everyone that helping in finishing the door gifts..the persons that teaching me how to do the Tourism Tag-Jolene & Shakila.
The person in preparing the packaging-Mei Ching
The outsiders that very helpful-Stephanie Lau & Lee Mo Yu(love both of you Very MucH..)
and of course to every of protocol team members^^

im proud of the dinner night~~damn proud! evryone of us really did put efforts in making the night to be a success. Mei Ching was stress during the preparation-cause she's the leader of protocol. The night's luck was in her hand..but baby~~dont worry, u did a great job^^

the next thing that i glad about is the relationship between all of us have become closer after the night...realised many potential 38 members among Tourism Club^^
in this picture:all girls team..except Richard.

in this picture: 1st year with all seniors.
wanna add something~~dissappointed in one thing..all the protocol team should put on their hair band that night, but it seems like only Catherine and me very "dengar cakap"..the other protocol members.......where was your hair band that night??????
Last word--------xoxo



Sunday 7 March 2010

口袋的天空

你的背影..远得像雾了
我不再回头
当脚步被回忆绑着..我跑过沙漠


我不要变得小小的
找不到自我
好像被什么人放在口袋---〉没天空


明天的故事都是我的..是我的
所谓的幸福快乐,不止一种..
美丽的春夏秋冬落叶是我的
体验过才懂梦是什么..


Glad that my feelings to the passed has became blur..
No turning back. Move forward. Appreciate what i already own now.



灵感来源:张韶含-口袋的天空

Saturday 6 March 2010

You Are Not Alone



最近
因时常遇到不顺利
觉得很绝望

再怎么努力也没用


有时想着想着
会眼眶湿湿

家人问
"你最近有没有怎样?"
"我没事"
不想让他们担心
想对他们说对不起
因为他们最近很难找到我
让你们担心,
真的不是故意的


虽然真的做什么都不顺利
我还是很幸运的

至少我有家人朋友的关心
至少我还有很好的宝贝们的陪伴
至少我不会再觉得我是一个人的

有个人说
要珍惜身边关心你的人
这个我真的很差经
可是
我会改的
谢谢提醒^^


明天会更好
加油喔****
You Are Not Alone

Thursday 4 March 2010

大团圆

照片不明..龙辉大哥的技术..哎..原谅他


照片到手上很久了,现在才得空PO上来..哈哈
真的很想念当时拜年..
一起一大班去拜年真的很爽..
很壮观..



今年第一次和学弟学妹们一起拜年..
觉得自己老了..

从照片上我发现一个事实:我发福了!脸圆到~~~~~~~~~没话讲.

Tuesday 2 March 2010

PaiN~


thought i was walking peacefully
thought the day have ended
thought it was enough for the day
thought all the bad things today would let me have a rest

noticed a friend
thought wanna gave him a greet
but
i failed to do so

suddenly
i came to a very dark place
i fell
injured
can you see me?

hoping that somebody hear me, see me..

it was a bad bad day
i would not forget the day
didnt ever think that i faced this situation even though im 21 now.

maybe i was too tired
or blur
or too STUPID.

but it was really hurt..

be careful next time, baybie