27.04

yes, i'm still awake now..


many things happened recently.
threats in assignments of course could not be avoided..everyone faced it.
difficulties in human relationships..this is getting worst currently.


life cant be smooth always as you wish
all those threats are just the tests to test you on how you handle it
though the process might be tough 
you have to move on
cry if you want, but stop when its needed
too much of tears will only lead you to become more weak
learn not to put your bad mood expression on your face when necessary, 
failing to do so will only cause people think that you are not professional.
keep complaining is human's nature, 
but too much of it will spoil human themselves.
that is what i feel this week.


i learnt to be polite
i learnt to only respecting those who worth to be respected
i learnt not to care for those unnecessary
i learnt that human makes mistakes
i learnt that human ability in gossiping is powerful that it can kill human relationship


what is my condition now?
tired.
but 
i don't want to fall
and 
i won't let it happen.
i just need more energy to do get everything done......really need energy so much

"一天到晚想着：谁对不起我，必然很痛苦；若转个念头想：我要感恩谁，那应该会更快乐吧."

23.04

23 April 2012

Dear blog,


i received a news from my brother today.
he called me this morning, he's crying...
i was told that grandpa passed away this morning at 6am.
in my mind, just appeared a thing..."i didn't see him for more than a year..and he just left?"
my grandpa was a stubborn person.
he loved social.
he made good dish of Iban's food.
he loved gardening.
the last time i chat with him was during Christmas back in year 2010. 
he left us in sudden today.
i did not know how to react when i was told about the news.
kept telling myself not to cry...yes, i made it...just the tears running in my eyes, and i'm holding the tears.
i controlled not to cry, but it was hurt.
i knew i can't cry..have to be strong, so that my mom did not worry about me....she had more tough days to go...hoping i was there to help her..really hope so.
i realized i do not have photo of me with grandpa on my hands...how shame was that.
grandpa, in my plan, i will buy you a nice shirts when i graduate. 
guess God needs grandpa so much that He took him earlier. 



Appreciate everyone besides you while you got the chances. 


"Akek, have a rest at there.."

这是什么男人？

有没有遇过这种男人 ：

到处说别人的坏话
就连自己的兄弟也不放过
是女生还不用紧.
在你面前说不用紧
在你面前笑
但
在你背后狠狠地给你一刀
说你的是非
是真是假都给你说
能把人说到多烂就多烂
让所有人都慢慢地疏远你

一回到家就说家里很乱，也不看看自己的两个书桌有多乱，两张桌子不够，还把东西放到餐桌，那我们怎么吃饭？
自己的房间不睡，睡客厅，那客厅是不是你的责任打扫？
厨房肮脏，说我们
用洗碗膏也说我们
在到处宣传我们有多烂之前
你要不要想想
厨房我们都有清理，至于你的洁癖程度并不关我们的事
我们也不喜欢用洗碗膏，那个洗碗膏是这间屋子本来就有的，要用洗碗剂你有自由自己买的，没有必要连这个也要怪我们

WiFi没告诉你是我的错，我愿意负责
我主动找你谈
我有还你钱，每月都会还，
而我也跟你说我只用电话弄我的APPS..
你竟然答应了，何必要说一些手段来让我的电话上你线的数度变慢？
没有介意那个钱，而介意你没胆直接跟我说
只会到处说人的不好
好的都会给你说坏去
你在家跟我假笑当没事，我没办法接受
不好意思.

你每天要这样想着办法对付你身边的人，真是辛苦你了！

你那个猪朋友带女友睡客厅，
是你的自由，
可是
请注意睡相
早上看到裸着身体流汗，手伸进"弟弟" 里，我的眼睛很不舒服!

第一次上FB骂人，第一次上来长编大论骂人，失礼了...

M : W

Man vs Woman.

Two different species.
Two different thoughts.

When it comes to misunderstanding,
heart-broken,
communication is needed.
guts is needed.
patience is needed.
positive-minded is needed.
love is needed.
forgiveness is needed.

though it's hurt and heart-breaking
both species have to face it.
Love whenever you can
Don't love when you are not ready
Love is not about accepting someone who treats you good
Wait for the one who is specially made for you,
the one you fall with,
the one you can give your everything to,
the one you accept all his/her weaknesses,
the one you truly love,
the one who is always there for you.

Love ties two species together.

Bermuda Triangle

besides the case that course mate asked a question about where is The U.S and U.S.A( I was like "what????!!! @.@"),
something caught my mind when Dr. showed us the world map.

Bermuda Triangle...
Ships and planes vanished without trace in Bermuda Triangle when they entered the zone..
No bodies and wrecked were found.

Wish to visit the place for a long time ago..
wondering about the mystery..
wondering what kind of life would it be in the lost world...
What's in there?
Another dimension?
nahh...watched too much of "LOST" huh?
LOL..
but i'm still hoping to go..one day..